So after reading all the comments I took some time to think and came to a decision, it is as follow: (bear with me as it will have a common subject and not just my MD)
I will give up on all my administration power, global moderator power and instead go back to being a local moderator. I realize there isn't much staff who are active but after looking at the staff list I think it's about enough for the amount of traffic the site gets compared to 2008. Of course I leave the decision to the actual staff, but talking from experience I preferred when I was just a moderator for the pic competition, show us yours and MDs.
To not feel like I just did a hit and run (which feels horrible) and because I'm addicted to this game and community, I will continue to come here to post on other threads and
maybe start updating again... Who knows....
I also decided to close the EBLT. Sorry Carlos but let's be honest, apart from you there isn't any activity. Your stuff is great for European players and I appreciate what you've been doing, but seeing as you're the only person of the team doing European stuff and I completely vanished to the far east, it makes little sense in my continuing to have that badge. If you want to continue to operate the team on your own then go ahead. All the other members are completely inactive now so it doesn't make sense to me.
Now I tried some suggestion from you. Specially playing other games. I have been doing so since forever. Back in 2010 through 2014 I've been playing CoD alongside SC4, but as I've recently discovered (or more like, I realized too late) that online games are not my thing for the fact alone that I get excessively angry in them. I rage a lot. (broken peripherals or even as far as punching and effectively breaking the first layer of a double-glazed window.) Add to that the fact that I have no self control when it comes to envy/jealousy (having spent 800 euros on CSGO cases alone, just because my """friend""" (which actually just used me as an entertainment thing, as he never once told me to stop the cases but instead encouraged me to buy more) got two rare knives and thinking I had a chance to get one too) all that is not good for my mental health and wealth. I tried to "take it easy" in those games and it worked for a couple weeks but in the end it came back to rage. Even god damn TF2 made me rage.
Most games I really enjoyed have very little replay value... Mafia 2 I know it by heart already, GTAV solo (online is crap and was killed by rockstar) just gets very repetitive, even with 30 GB of mods installed.... I love sniping in FPS, it was what I played the most in CoD and I enjoyed it a lot. Having played Sniper Ghost warrior 1 and 2 were not great but alright, unfortunately those games are corridor of 5 hours at most with zero replayability. (Though the mechanics was perfect, having to calculate bullet drop, distance and wind was extremely fun) And upcoming games will either be unfinished, straight out lies or will be made just to push a political agenda. Unfortunately the age of making games for fun is long gone, now it's all brainwashing people and making money out of sheep.
And unfortunately I don't live in a free country where I can just go in the woods/desert to shoot up bottles with my M107 or AWS.
Well now some good news. I have a job interview coming in some days. It's not much, a 12 months fixed term contract as an IT repair guy working for the government. I hope I can get it and I really do hope at the end of the 12 months I will be proposed for a unlimited duration contract. Otherwise I will have to seek something else.
Anyway it's not like I have giant dreams in life. I do not wish for a family, kids or wife. I don't care about that. All I want is to be able to buy myself a Skyline GT-R R32 before this commie government decide to push more laws against old cars (despite the fact they're vastly superior to the crap that comes out of the factories today) and before they decide they're illegal. I don't want a newer car full of bull-crap botnet features. I don't care about built in GPS that shows the government my position 24/7, I don't care about electric windows. I just want a car that drives well and I can enjoy on the streets. If it comes to this I'll have to move out of this country anyway.
Anyway to sum up I'm still alive and kicking, got bored of GTA V and other games, and decided that stopping sc4 just stupid.
I still have one or two thing that I wanted to do in SC4... Firstly I want to make a completely custom Japanese city, using only my own BATs. It will take time to create it however.... And secondly I want to give another go at a real depressing commie city.
I guess I will be seeing you guys around..

(sorry for ranting!)